5.10.2009
Basically, my wife was immature. I'd be at home in the bath and she'd come in and sink my boats.
In the souls of the people the grapes of wrath are filling and growing heavy, growing heavy for the vintage.
5.02.2009
Fear not, daughter of Zion; behold, your king is coming, sitting on a donkey's colt!
Well I can scratch riding a donkey off of my list of life goals. The Biblical references to certain animals take on new meaning when you actually live among them.
I may have mentioned this a couple years ago, but riding a donkey is not exactly a sign of authority.
People who ride donkey's in Sudan (in my experience) -
1) children
2) cripples
3) dumb*** Kawaja's (white people)
Jesus entry on a donkey is a very concrete symbol of his humility, his disregard for the trappings of success and power.
Now sheep. Jesus is the good shepherd, and we are the sheep. This does not seem like a compliment. We have two sheep on our compound. They have decided to eat everything they come across (including the new roof that was being put on our office), and generally seem to have the mental acumen of a rock.
At least if we'd been called dogs there are some good implications. Loyal, fierce, etc... But no - we are sheep. We are hopeless without a shepherd. Incapable of providing for ourselves, defending ourselves or walking in a straight line. Complete and utter dependance on God. Whether we realize it or not. Everything comes from him.
In Paris they simply stared when I spoke to them in French. I never did succeed in making those idiots understand their own language.
- Mark Twain
Things I've learned about myself since returning:
I believe I've grown in patience - or at least I'm not letting the little things under my skin at this point. Maybe I'll break down and lose my patience after a few months, but I feel like I've grown in that area.
But I'm struggling to muster up the heart for the people that I would like to have. As I've been glued to my computer working on reports for most of my 3 weeks of being here, it's been far too easy to not leave the compound, not work on my Arabic and not interact with local culture.
If I'm here for a 9 to 5 job then that doesn't matter, but ideally everything would be working toward the greater purpose of showing God's love to the people of Sudan. And it's all very well to say I'm doing that through my job - and I hope true - but I think true love demands more than a detached interest in the people I am meant to help.